Pluggin' Along

Still here. Still trying. Still struggling to come up with "interesting" posts about my latest accomplishments, which is pretty much that I'm maintaining my weight.  And while that's a good thing - when I think about how many years I slowly gained another 20 pounds each year(must have been at least 6, not counting the two years I was pregnant) I have to say that maintaining is a pretty significant thing.  The flip side of that is I have been at the same weight for pretty much all of 2010.  Realistically, there's NOTHING wrong with that (sometimes it helps to put things in caps, mostly for my benefit).  I honestly get up each day and go out in the hot Vegas sun without sweating much - 60 pounds and 16 months ago I was sweating a bunch in the 70 degree weather in Idaho.  I am not self-conscious anymore.  I enjoy where I'm at and what I'm doing and hardly give my body a second thought.  I feel confident at the gym and go 5 days a week - I love it.  I went to the movies with the hubs last Saturday and slid right into the seat - I remember barely squeezing into movie seats and setting the popcorn on the floor, having it tip over and just wanting to crawl in a hole and die because I was going to have to bend over to pick up the bag and I knew my butt would be hanging out, my stomach would only let me bend over so far and would be silently berating myself for being such a fat, blah, blah, blah.... you get the picture.

Am I happy with where I am? Yes, I would say my maintaining my weight would answer that.  Am I content? No.  I still have a number in mind and that number is 180.  Right now I would settle for 220.  By Thanksgiving.  Putting it out there again.  It kind of seems lame to me that I keep getting on here, stating pretty much the same things, and then getting on 3 or 4 weeks later and doing it all over again.  But, I'm a work in progress.

Is my journey over? Nope.  Am I still trying? Yep. Do I get discouraged? Of course! Will I give up? Never!

this is me now