The Scale

I weighed myself today....and yesterday. This is a good thing for me. When I started on my journey of finally being "me" back in June I was weighing myself every morning. It was fine for awhile, and I really thought it was working for me - helping me be accountable each day. But around the 29 pound mark I started being a little OCD about the whole thing. I was weighing myself every morning and every night - how else was I going to prepare myself for what the scale might say the next morning???? Hello. Definitely out of control. What happened at 29 pounds is that I hit a plateau. I have hit said plateau the last two times I lost weight - in 2006 while on Weight Watchers I hit the plateau at 29 pounds. I stopped attending the meetings the next week and was on my way back to Chubbyville within a month. I also hit the plateau at about the 20 pound mark while doing Body for Life in 2005.....stopped BFL a couple of weeks later.

I knew the plateau was coming, I was waiting for it and I thought I was ready for it. But what happened was that I started hating myself each morning (and each night) that the scale went up or down a pound or two - because bodies do that. They retain water, they build muscle, they hold onto things for who knows why, and I was beating myself up for it every day. I broke through the plateau right after Labor Day and continued weighing myself every morning and evening - and last week I finally decided I'd had enough. I will weigh myself every Wednesday morning and post said weight here on the blog - I did give in and weigh yesterday too, but hey, I am definitely not perfect. This morning I weighed in at 261.4 pounds. That may seem like a TON of weight to most of you, but I am so pleased with myself. I have officially lost 35.8 pounds in 4 months. And I finally posted it - I know that it won't be available to my tens of readers until I've lost 50 pounds, but I am pleased as pie!